Before the Glow
I can't tell you for how long
and how much I've wanted this.
To be a mom. Living with Bipolar 1 Disorder can take a lot from you, but I've decided this is one thing
I will not let it take.
From Day 1 of the journey
(that first moment I start to taper off my meds) to that extraordinary day my dream comes to fruition,
I will be here documenting it all.
Consider this your up close and personal invite to whatever mayhem
(and wonder) ensues.
(pictured: celebrating my 36th birthday in November of 2020)
This picture tells you two things. I love the color blue and I love beanies in the fall and winter--but only because I just told you.
In order for any of this to make sense, you should probably know some hard facts. I am 38, I have stage 3 Endometriosis--a condition that makes it hard to get pregnant, and I have lived with Bipolar 1 Disorder since I was 16. Twenty-three long years of being completely reliant on three kinds of medication. All of which can harm an unborn baby. The most important fact of all: I've wanted children for as long as I can remember.
That's where things get tricky, right?
“Our life is shaped by our mind, for we become what we think.”
Buddha